The Four J's.....A History lesson

So most of you all don't know that ever since I was a baby I have been a member of a very exclusive society. Free Mason you say? Try again, I'm 1/4 of the Four J's. I suppose it all started when I was born, you know the day the earth stood still, hee hee hee! I guess it really started when my parents decided to call me by the name J.R. as opposed to my real name Gilbert, but J.R., why not call you Junior? I'll tell you.......I dunno, in any case that nickname would stick with me for life.

26 short days later came Jessica, the boss hahahaha. Jessica has always been strong willed and hella' fun to be around. You might see her at her day job pushing paper for "the man" as the Admin assistant for the big boss man orrrrrrrrr you might also catch her tending to her side business which is far more interesting (story for another blog).

Next in line is Joseph "the adorable one". Joseph as always been so kind hearted and super silly. He was lucky enough to live in close proximity to my dear sweet grandma and was totally the apple of her eye. He's now all grown up and married with children and still a truly nice guy.

Last came Joshua "the clown" for now and always. Joshua is the wild child and has always provided plenty of comic relief to this large family of mine. While he has an ultra serious graphic artist job during the day he is also highly motivated and does some killer stuff on the side. If you check out some of his pics, it's quite apparent that nowadays this guy has lots of fun and is truly making the most of his time here on earth.

I can remember us getting annoyed when someone would interrupt our game of "Colored eggs" in grandma's front yard to take a picture of the Four J's. Then as the group of us got older it just seemed silly, like coooooome on do we really have to do this, we are 13 years old already?!?!? It wasn't until Joseph's wedding when my cousin said "hey grab Josh, I wanna take a picture of the Four J's" that I realized that as we all grow older in our busy little lives that it feels super good to be a part of something so special an unique. I no longer think it's silly, I'm no longer bothered when it takes a while to get us all in one spot to take a picture (mostly because I don't play colored eggs anymore). I love this crew deeply, they are my cousins and we will ALWAYS be the Four J's.

Adult warning......

Hahaha I just realized how bad it looks everytime I access my blog and you need to accept the "Adult Content" warning; like if after you click accept that all these chicks with big boobs are gonna come flying at ya! I dunno, I am a good person, but sometimes I like to say the F word, is that bad? LOL Never in anger I s'pose. Actually my real intentions in putting the warning button (which I didn't think was going to be quite so huge) was that when I decided to do all this blogging business that good, bad or ugly I was going to be honest and share all of me.

Who knows, with technology moving as fast as it is these days, you may just be able to pull up my little bwains in a menu and be able to read my thoughts, but if that doesn't happen I would like to be able to look back at some point and remember who I was at this point in my life. That would really blow if I am only around for a short while longer huh? Just sayin.... Oh NOOOOO something ALWAYS happens to someone who says something like that and then when they are doing my story on Dateline NBC Chris Hanson will say......"Ironically JR recently blogged that he might not be around much longer". Then someone will cry and say it was all there, we should have seen the signs hahahahaha I know I'm sick that I allow my mind to wander so and NOOOO, I never want it to end and I want to live a very long time (great another thing that Chris Hanson will mention after my untimely demise, kidding, kidding). Gosh is it Friday yet? Much love....

The Cast......Part1

When she touched ground on this earth it was magical and none of our lives have been the same. She is truly one of the brightest lights I have come to know in this lifetime and I am so lucky to know her. Ever since she was a small child it was very apparent the size of her enormous heart and she continues to make me proud. I admire her ability to drop everything she is doing to sing a song and not be nervous and I wish I could do the same. I adore how despite the fact that she is 16 that she still begs for my attention when she wants to show me a new turn or leap she learned, just like a little kid that wants you to watch them jump off the diving board. She's precious, young and naive, but not in a bad way, in a very sweet idealistic way. I look forward to her lighting up the stage when she performs; she's a natural and I hope that she never lets that go. She melts my heart and I am proud to be her uncle....Cheyenne

Tick tock tick tock.....

I have yet to make my mark on the world yet and I am starting to feel the pressure, because as cliche' as it sounds.....time stops for no one. Ever since I was a kid I have had a serious problem with the concept of time; I can vividly remember bursting out into tears at random, because I didn't want my parents to die. Now, while I still don't want my parents to die and just the thought kills me (no pun intended) there are so many other pressures that make my heart hurt.

I sit here at a very cool job, watching Gwen Stefani at the moment, but that's neither her nor there, but my point is that it's a pretty cool job. Yet, I am still sitting behind a desk thinking, seriously I hope this isn't it. I want to be creative and use what I have been afforded to make a difference, but again when do we have time to make that happen? "I'm frightened Auntie Em, I'm frightened" that I will be that person that says I could have done this and I could have done that, but I never tried. So how do I do it? Tell me, would ya' please? I spend my days working and being grateful for what I have, praying that I don't take advantage of what has been provided and yet I want more, is that bad? Why are the Black Eyed Peas on the TV screens playing the same song again, I think that is the 3rd time this morning?!?!? Again, neither here nor there, I'm just saying.....

In any case I don't burst out in tears at random anymore afraid that my parents are going to die; I have accepted the fact that none of us will be around forever. I am mostly concerned about people always knowing how much they mean to me and that I am deeply inspired, by the little things that they do. I mean people have paid me some monster compliments in my day based on personality and in my head I'm thinking, I'm the lucky one.....I'm total poser and just bit off of everyone else's good qualities and try my best to emulate them so people feel half as good as they make me feel. So, I guess the good news story here is that even if I do nothing else in life and my biggest issue is the above listed, then I am a very lucky man.

So I know that I am the one who has to figure out the job and my future thing, I didn't mean to put the responsibility on you. I do however appreciate your listening ear, but if you get anything from today's rant I hope that you know that from the bottom of mt heart I am grateful for you. Make it a good one.....